I haven’t written in over two months. It honestly feels a little weird to be sitting here typing on my laptop. When I write I have to get in the zone you know? No distractions, just me and my feelings. But anxiety and fear have grown and the world has gotten darker so … Continue reading Vulnerable Victor
Right now I’m connected to the world. Have you ever realized how beautiful life really is? Of course it’s terrifying but that’s part of the beauty. The failures, the tears, the death, it’s all what makes life so priceless. The sense that everything is temporary is meant to force us to take advantage of … Continue reading Eccentric Nature Trips
I can see it. I can see the sparkling lights of the tower. The flowers that decorate the exteriors of cafes as people rush past to continue their days. I hear them speaking their beautiful language so quickly I can’t keep up at all but I pretend to understand. I smell the delicate … Continue reading Daydreaming in Paris
Okay, this isn’t the first and last time you’re going to hear this: 2020 is rough. With natural disasters, global pandemics, white supremacy, and a ton of other shitty things we’ve seen occur this year we can say that it truly sucks. However, I genuinely believe that it could get better, I mean … Continue reading Lessons Learned
There’s so much fear around me. I can’t breathe. The fear of the violence that’s about to be unleashed on the people who march with me. I can’t breathe. We wear our masks to protect ourselves from the virus and the tear gas. I can’t breathe. There’s only so much we can do to avoid … Continue reading I Can Breathe.
I’ve found them. My person. My other half. My everything. I’ve found them after 8 years of searching. They’ve made Breathing Spring seem like child’s play as I find myself preferring the sound of the rain over a bright spring day or the moon’s delicate energy over the booming sun’s. I never got to finish … Continue reading Mirror Mirror
I feel the breath of spring enter my body as your lips part from mine. I open my eyes to see your smile that feels like the warm sun on my skin. Your strong arms protect and comfort me so it's like laying in a meadow of white tulips. My favorite. It’s bright here where … Continue reading Breathing Spring
As I drive down the road, the bright lights of restaurants and stores do their best to taunt me into entering. They have no idea that it’s a lost cause because even though they’re bright, the road is still dark. It’s just me and my Loneliness in the car as I replay the … Continue reading Nothing
Sitting in warm cafe observing the people around me, I answer my own personal questions about life. The cold and rainy weather has brought in a lot of new customers to be victims of my people watching (and slight judging). Of course, there’s the one person who’s glued to their phone and is … Continue reading Rainy Day Cafe
I’d like to start this off by apologizing for my lack of posts. I’m here to update you on my life and give you that monthly dose of “Jan Positivity” that you didn’t know you needed until now. I’m completely open about my mental health because they are plenty of people who get … Continue reading Powerful.